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i am so nervous.

tomorrow morning i walk to ealing college, my new school, to get inducted for all my classes. i start school on monday. im going alone. i know no one. im in a different country. im so scared! it takes about 30 min. to walk to school. i just dont know what to expect. its practically a public school.. ive never been to a public school. i just want to get in, do my work, do good, and get out and go home!! i just want this to be over with. :( im scared of the kids there. girls scare me. they're mean. i know ill make friends. but id rather just do my work and be done. im not looking for any deep relationships cause ill be gone by next summer anyway. i know all this will help me with college, ill be on my own and stuff. but im still so nervous. im doing a program with kids whove failed.. i dont know what kind of crowd that will put me in. i want to visit home as much as possible, but mom always hints i cant because its so expensive. ive only planned to go back twice! and even at that she still says "well you dont know that!" I WANT TO BE HOME! just 2 round-trip plane tickets! i dont care if i dont buy anything else for the rest of the year, i just want to go home... it just makes me so upset when im told i cant go home...